once upon a life

letting go

I am a day late for Wishcasting Wednesday, but I thought I’d just peek in and see what Jamie’s prompt was for yesterday. Oh my! “What do you wish to let go?” I actually laughed out loud when I saw those words. Once again, the Universe is hard at work making sure I “get it.” I have been going through an intense, yet somehow gentle,  “letting go” process since early September. I didn’t set out to do it, it just happened. But this particular post is not intended to write about the specifics of that.

Earlier today I posted the following writing by Ernest Holmes on my facebook page. Coincidence? I think not! I would just simply like to share it with the rest of you…

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“She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go. She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons. Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.

She didn’t ask anyone for advice. She didn’t read a book on how to let go… She didn’t search the scriptures. She just let go. She let go of all of the memories that held her back. She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward. She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right.

She didn’t promise to let go. She didn’t journal about it. She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer. She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper. She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope. She just let go.

 

She didn’t analyze whether she should let go. She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter. She didn’t do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment. She didn’t call the prayer line. She didn’t utter one word. She just let go.

No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or congratulations. No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.

There was no effort. There was no struggle. It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad. It was what it was, and it is just that.

In the space of letting go, she let it all be. A small smile came over her face. A light breeze blew through her. And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.”

- Ernest Holmes

wishcasting wednesday

According to Jamie Ridler, "Wishcasting Wednesday is a safe haven for wishes, a fertile field in which to plant wish seeds and have them witnessed and tended lovingly. It’s a place where magic begins." I have been wanting to take part in Jamie's weekly ritual for months now. I have also been trying to get my blog up and running for the same amount of time. I don't have an overwhelming desire to write, but my "spirit counsel" will not take no for an answer. And it's certainly not because I think my life already "rocks." It's because, overwhelmingly, everyone "up there" has long been whispering and pushing about the hotly anticipated arrival of what little 'ole me has to say. Go figure! So, here I am facing a huge fear of putting it all out there, and casting a wish at the same time! Whew!! I knew today was the day for me to face and embrace the giant that I once feared so much. Deeeep breath...

Today's prompt question was "What do you wish to learn?" Geez!! Are you kidding me, Jamie? LEARNING is a "button" for me. I've sat in my seat, held my hand down, kept my mouth shut, etc., because I thought I still had so much more to learn. I refused to hit post on a blog because I hadn't "learned" about about blogging. Now I'm doing both in one shot!

I wish to learn that what I know right now is all I need to know for now. This concept may seem simple for some, but for me it's what holds me back from living my life wide open. It's a frustrating cycle of wanting to fully embrace all that is unique and beautiful about myself, and the haunting need for perfectionism and all that that issue entails. The TRUTH is, I know that I know what I know! Period. I also know that I will never stop learning. But what good does it do me, or anyone else, if I keep raising the bar on myself?

So, I wish to learn to TRUST my inner voice...that ever present wisdom that speaks louder than the ego...step out of my comfort zone by living, being, sharing and teaching what I've already learned!